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NEW LIVEJOURNAL [22 May 2005|08:05pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Sometimes you just need a change...so I got a new lj! Sorry for those who just recently added me. I added all of my current friends, so just add me back! __this_is_love

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[11 May 2005|03:24pm]
Whoo...school is almost out! Okay, well...that's all

See ya!

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[08 May 2005|08:55pm]

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

Your Mexican Name Is...

Doña Solymar

That one was for Scott

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[08 May 2005|08:40pm]
[ mood | I hate the sun ]

Marco Island was a fun time...here are some pics...Collapse )

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[07 May 2005|07:19am]
[ mood | excited ]

Gone at Marco Island for the weekend...at least until Sunday at 6! Have a good weekend and call the cell! 206.2740


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Normal....or something like it [03 May 2005|05:59pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

So yeah...things are funfuckingtabulous! My grades are pimpin and my body is pumpin! Today was Drum Major Auditions...I really want to do it! As much as I LOVE drumline...conducting is great too. Who knows...tomorrow they'll decide if I have what it takes to do it. =)

Friday night is awards night then Saturday...Marco Island!!!!!!!! Zach, be prepared to be burried with boobies and a fin!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COREY!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!11 Only 1 month and 2 days until MINE!!!!!!!!!!

Who wants to come to my party? Don't be shy...I know you all do. ^.^

I love boys.

Gym time! <3

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Holy crap...3 posts in one day! [24 Apr 2005|07:59pm]
ilikeprettypanda (7:57:23 PM): how come cool guys go for hoe bags?
ilikeprettypanda (7:57:31 PM): does that make them not cool guys?
Colour Me Cliche (7:57:40 PM): Fo sho

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Public pictures! [24 Apr 2005|12:41pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]


Pictures from the weekendCollapse )

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[19 Apr 2005|07:34pm]
[ mood | happy ]





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[03 Apr 2005|04:51pm]
[ mood | busy ]

Sorry guys but I think it's time to make this journal...

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Comment for the add.


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13 going on 30 and Pat Benatar is love [02 Apr 2005|05:27pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

You’re beggin me to go, you’re makin’ me stay
Why do you hurt me so bad?
It would help me to know
Do I stand in your way, or am I the best thing you’ve had?
Believe me, believe me, I can’t tell you why
But I’m trapped by your love, and I’m chained to your side

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

We are strong, no one can tell us we’re wrong
Searchin’ our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield

We’re losing control
Will you turn me away or touch me deep inside?
And before this gets old, will it still feel the same?
There’s no way this will die
But if we get much closer, I could lose control
And if your heart surrenders, you’ll need me to hold

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield

Today was some what disappointing, but that's okay, I'm over it... Thanks to a good friend :)There will be better days.

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Fuck this shit bitch [01 Apr 2005|07:43pm]
[ mood | Lonely/pissed off ]

For Ches: Sorry I couldn't go tonight. I know this parent stuff is bullshit, I'm more mad about it then you are, trust me. Don't know if you still went or not, but if you did, I hope you liked the movie. :/ Ugh!!! This pisses me off! This is all my fault, I wish I didn't go out with Leland, because none of this parent shit would of happened. And we could actually see each other. I'm sorry for being a fuck up. Please call later or whenever...

 Advice for everyone: Don't count on people to follow through with what they say. Also, don't be stupid like me.


I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind

God I wish I either had some drugs or a drunk boy I don't have to love. Ugh! SOMEONE OR SOMETHING WOULD BE NICE RIGHT NOW! *Sigh...*

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[30 Mar 2005|06:21pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

It's almost April...that means I'm gonna be working my buns off! Got the science project and State coming up...also a bunch of Drumline Clinic's...eww! Band is so lame now, it's unbelievable...and it's going to just get worse.

I had a lot of energy today...despite my lack of sleep last night. Some people just put you in such a good mood that stuff doesn't bother you. Also, I got a lot off my back school wise today.

Hmm...I'm back to not knowing what the hell I want. Haha. So yeah, I thought all I wanted was a relationship and all that "good fun stuff", but now I think all I want is a friend with benefits. I just want someone. I can't really make up my mind about what I want until I actually have someone that wants one or the other. >.< I confuse myself.

Oh yeah..mom hasn't said anything about being grounded yet. I'm showing effort, which is what really counts.

I think I'm on the verge of being happy. :)

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[29 Mar 2005|08:17pm]
[ mood | thirsty ]

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||| 53%
Stability |||| 16%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Empathy |||||||||||| 50%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 63%
Mystical |||||||||| 36%
Artistic |||||| 23%
Religious |||||||||| 36%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Materialism |||||||||| 36%
Narcissism || 10%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 43%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 63%
Conflict seeking |||||||||| 36%
Need to dominate |||||| 23%
Romantic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63%
Anti-authority |||||||||| 36%
Wealth |||||||||||| 43%
Dependency |||||||||||||| 56%
Change averse |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Individuality |||||||||||||||| 63%
Sexuality |||||| 30%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||| 56%
Physical security |||||||||||||| 56%
Food indulgent |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Histrionic |||| 16%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 70%
Vanity |||||| 23%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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trait snapshot:

neat freak, organized, worrying, phobic, fears the unknown, irritable, pessimistic, emotionally sensitive, fears chaos, risk averse, fragile, unadventurous, depressed, frequently second guesses self, likes to fit in, does not like to stand out, perfectionist, hard working, does not like to be alone, clingy, dependent, practical, ordinary, cautious, takes precautions, good at saving money, suspicious, heart over mind, busy, altruistic

Haha...that is amusing...

P.S.-Ches call me when you get off work if you can and if you read this well..tonight..duh. ;O Just wanted to chat for a few to know what's up with some stuff. <3

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[29 Mar 2005|05:01pm]
[ mood | Crampy ]

Today sucked like woah. Curses to who thought of school!

-Tomorrow I'm the 1st to do my presentation
-Ches couldn't bring by the CD's and chill (Damn you Wal-mart!)
-Had to call Leland to find about Ches working (Not helping me feel any better)
-Horrible cramps (Sorry guys)
-Felt completely lonely and sick
-Get report cards tomorrow...bye bye freedom

+Tomorrow the career project is over
+Half the band gone, so no rehearsal
+One more day of school over

Okay, The list could go on forever...so bleh, time to listen to "Get Over It" for some self motivation.

Rawr!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait until this summer when I can just leave and drive around. Lay on the hood of my car and just stare into the sky not thinking about anything.

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[28 Mar 2005|04:31pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Today was good...which usually Mondays aren't. Barely did any work today and felt great to see people again. I haven't gotten so many hugs in a long time! Passing notes with Meghan about interesting topics was definitely one of the things I missed the most. And for once this year, a real hug from Eric! I feel so bad for him...he puts his heart out on the line more than I do. I think I'm going to ask him if he wants to hang out this weekend, he's a good kid and deserves to be happy. :)

Anywho...Oral presentation on Wednesday for me. Bleh...I'll be like the 10th person to talk about being a pharmacist. At least I'll give them a good nap, eh?

Did anybody happen to see Lyndon face this morning on BDTV? Chad-"Who is your hero?" Lyndon-"John Kerry" Never give up Lyndon, never give up.

Guess what Sara?!?! 2 more months until Penny's Camp!!!!!!!! Then I get to see you! Yay! Maybe we can actually go swimming this year! Do you know anyone else that is going?

Oh and Ches...do you think tomorrow afternoon when I get home from school you could drop those CD's off over here and we could hang for a bit? Message my phone and let me know if you want too.

Time to make some dinner for the fat kids, cause I'm on a diet! <3

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[27 Mar 2005|12:23pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Last day of Spring Break...wow, this totally blows. The only good thing about today is I spend most of the time getting food stuffed down my throat and people hugging me at every corner. Usually I hate days like this, but it will be nice to be shown that I am loved somewhere. The only thing that made me mad this morning is I had on a girls shirt, yes a girls shirt. And my mother made me change. Because it fit me like a regular shirt should. I'm so tired of looking the way that I do, even my mother stuffs me into shirts too big. People are bullshit...you can't get anywhere with just personality. So all I gotta say is fuck you guys who don't think I'm good enough, you're the ones that are missing out. Just wait and see when I look amazing, then you'll be the ones that aren't good enough for me. :)

Enough of that rant. Hehe...so yes, hope you all have a wonderful Easter. Most of you I will see tomorrow at hell and to those that I won't, give me a call.

Won't be able to update for a while...so yeah, talk to you guys later.


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[26 Mar 2005|06:59pm]
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[24 Mar 2005|03:51pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

I'll go home tonight and wish for a better tomorrow. I'll go home tonight and wish for a better you. I'll go home tonight and wish I wasn't crying again over the things you do.-Found that in an old journal I had, and just felt like writing it down...fits my mood.

Today sucked for the most part. I was glad to spend time with Brittany since I haven't seen her for a while. I got to see Ches for about a total of 3 min. I invited him to the movies but he didn't want to go. Now I'm sitting here while Brittany is napping and he is spending his afternoon doing whatever. Once again the only thing I wanted to do over Spring Break isn't going to happen. I hate this a lot. I know I'm being selfish, but I don't care.

It will be hard for you to make out exactly what that lovely person is saying, even if you hear every word clearly. Ambiguity, usually your friend, is working against you. -horoscope for today...wow, a friend working against me, sounds familiar.

I'm sorry Ches...but you knew how bad I wanted to see you. I know you weren't in the mood to go anywhere, but there went my chance to see you for a long time. Do you even care? That's all I want to know.

That's all...sorry for the waste of time.

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Post for me, read if you want. [22 Mar 2005|02:56pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I'm so tired of sitting here having no life...I want something more to live for. Or at least someone. After watching The Notebook, it makes me really sad to not have someone. Just a day ago, that would be the last thing that I was saying. But that movie made me realize how powerful and wonderful love is. I thought for a while I was on the way to falling in love, then I showed myself that what I was feeling wasn't love. Nothing close to it at all. I want that kind of love where every single time I hear the phone ring, I get nervous wondering if it's "him". I want each kiss to be just as indescribable as the one before it. I want the pointless fights and make up make out sessions. I want it all...everyone thinks I'm not capable of having that or making it last, but I know I can. I want something real this time. Not just a fake label with no meaning like what happened before. Ugh. I feel sorry for you if you're actually reading this. But hey, it's a journal, so yeah, I can rant like this. Are you out there? Or did I already pass you by with out noticing?

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